This week I've had wee 'scare' My PCP send me to an ENT Specialist. I have a huge lump under my ear at my jaw-line. ENT Specialist informs me that he thinks it could quite possible me a malignancy. I have an appointment in the 15th for a CAT Scan w/ contrast. We shall see...
-but- prior to this news I've been doing a lot of thinking over the past year or so:
- what has my life meant?
- what have I ever done to make this world a better place ?
- How will my Son's remember me?
- do I have enough 'time' left to make even a modest contribution to this beautiful planet?
As a result of my cares & concerns about The Human Condition, the destruction of The Planet, the brutal way we treat our Non-Human brethren...My family thinks I am 'crazy' and this makes me sad....not because they think I'm crazy, for I care nothing about that -but- for the fact that the concept of treating this beautiful planet and it's creatures with Love, Respect & Dignity is thought of as 'crazy'.
That's what breaks my heart.
'Life' is Sacred and deserves to be treated as such.
Even though it's cold outside right now...I am going to get dressed, go outside and sit on the ground, rest my back against a tree and let her vibrations heal my mind & body.....
okay...so maybe I am a little crazy *wink*